The search is what anyone would undertake if he were not sunk in the everydayness of his own life. To become aware of the possibility of the search is to be onto something. Not to be onto something is to be in despair.
Every city has a sex and an age which have nothing to do with demography. Rome is feminine. So is Odessa. London is a teenager, an urchin, and, in this, hasn't changed since the time of Dickens. Paris, I believe, is a man in his twenties in love with an older woman.
Please live. Talk, think, act. And sometimes listen to the music... Look at paintings and at times be moved. Laugh a lot, and at times, cry. And if you find a wonderful girl, then you go for her and love her.