When I was young I felt really overwhelmed and confused by the desire not to end up in an office, doing something I didn't believe in.
Like, at first it's fine and you think you have a dark side- it's exciting. And then you realise the dark side wins every time.
When you're a real introvert like me and you've been lonely for a while, and then you find someone who understands you, you become really attached to them. It's a real disease.
Change this and that and try again. Duis mollis, est non commodo luctus, nisi erat porttitor ligula, eget lacinia odio sem nec elit. Cras mattis consectetur purus sit amet fermentum.