Willingness is essential in any initiation or in making any dream come true. I can't often means I won't. You can change I won to I will with willpower.
What you seek, exists within you. Every resource you need is available to you.
Every day use your magic to be of service to others.
Change this and that and try again. Duis mollis, est non commodo luctus, nisi erat porttitor ligula, eget lacinia odio sem nec elit. Cras mattis consectetur purus sit amet fermentum.