We don't have a biography.
The circumstances of your life have uniquely qualified you to make a contribution. And if you don't make that contribution, nobody else can make it.
I would rather think of life as a good book. The further you get into it, the more it begins to come together and make sense.
In the final analysis, the questions of why bad things happen to good people transmutes itself into some very different questions, no longer asking why something happened, but ...
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